09 Jan '13
A Vicky Review – Embracing my Submission by Jenna Jacob (4 Stars)
Haunted for years by dreams of a savage, amber eyed Dominant with lips so enticing my soul ached in frustration and lust. None of the Dominants at Genesis, my local BDSM club ever stirred me in such blistering ways. While I tried to fill my submissive desires vicariously through interactions at the club, I attempted to convince myself it was enough. But it wasn’t. My dream Dom made certain I hungered for more.
Forced beyond what I could bear, my passion and frustration exploded. I threw in the towel, determined to stop chasing a dream and gave up completely on finding submissive surrender. But fate intervened when two gunshots split the night. Forced to confront my desires and insecurities, I was shocked to realize that my dreams may have held a deeper meaning. Were they compelling me to finally embrace my submission?
Julianna has had a tough time as a submissive – her first Dom was an abusive bastard and then she gets attacked by a prospective Dom while in the club. But her dreams of a man who she knows is her perfect Dom keep her going. She has a lot of self esteem issues and believes the reason she remains unclaimed after 4 years is that she repulses the prospective Dom’s at Genesis, the club she’s a member at.
Mika, the owner of Genesis, is complicated. He keeps himself hidden away from all the members of his club, shrowded in mystery but he longs for Emerald (Julianna’s club name), the beautiful sub who looks so much like the wife he lost. But no matter his feelings he knows that he can’t go against everything he believes in to be with her so he has done his best to keep away. But when he sees her being attacked she is thrust in to his life and he struggles to keep his distance.
Drake is Emeralds protector – the fact they have become such strong friends and love each other, in a platonic way, added another layer to the story making it that much more enjoyable for me. The guilt that Drake fees is understandable, even though its unwarranted as what happened wasn’t his fault. The way that he and Trevor, his sub, worry about Julianna / Emerald is really sweet and proves how much they value each other.
So much happens in this story I kept feeling like I was getting to the end and then something else would happen. I would have been satisfied if the story had finished sooner but I think it worked because it wasn’t a wham bam insta-love forever sort of story – it needed the extra pain and time to help them both work out their feelings and get to the HEA.