Jeremy Ash, an aspiring actor, is single, gorgeous…and openly, quietly gay. When he lands a starring role opposite America’s favorite former child star, 21-year old Kit Harris, he’s ecstatic and more than a little attracted to the enigmatic star.
Kit Harris’s career has been flagging and his agent promises this new film, an edgy coming out story with a famed director, is just the thing to get it back on track. The problem is that the film is relatively intimate in nature, and Kit’s definitely not gay. He’s not even slightly bent.
When the two men collide in a crushing first kiss that leaves both gasping for air, Kit’s left reeling and Jeremy’s left wanting. And that was just the audition. When filming starts and the two men are brought into close proximity every day, passions ignite and souls collide–both on screen and off. The two men find that the only way to assuage their mutual lust is to give in to it. Kit’s sure this strange new attraction will run its course; Jeremy’s hoping it never has to end.
But when a manipulative model obtains salacious film footage of the two men in bed, Kit’s prepared to do whatever it takes to save his career. But how far is too far to push the boundaries of love and how long can one man hide from himself?
Kit is out. Not comfortably so, but he has at least crossed out of the dark and into the limelight. For Out Takes I asked myself what happens when coming out doesn’t go smoothly. When the world doesn’t applaud your choice and you’re faced with having to fight to be yourself in a very public arena. What would you do in order to maintain your hold on your sense of self? Safety? Relationship?
Coming out doesn’t end when someone announces, “I’m gay.” If we’re not honest with the world about who we love, we’re probably not being honest about a whole bunch of things. Once we open the door to that honesty, however, things begin to snowball. The ride to destiny picks up momentum, gathering speed until it crashes into an object I call Fate. Fate is 1 part external world and 99 percent ourselves, just waiting to happen. Well, Kit is about to meet his Fate, and it’s covered in chocolate icing and a whole lot of fondant.
Contrary character that Kit is, he wants to know, if I’m so smart, whether or not I realize why I write coming out stories. Have I thought about why this issue is so important to me that I can’t seem to tackle any other flavor from the GLBT pile of tropes?
Why, yes, Kit. Yes, I have.
When I was in high school I fell in love with my best friend. We were bashed pretty heavily by people who “read” us as a couple, and the scars remain to this day. I’m bisexual, but not really comfortable with my sexuality. I still stutter over my personal history when telling folks.
Only my closest friends for the longest time knew the details behind my marriage. The relationship lasted from my fifteenth birthday until my 39th. In all that time I barely ever had to come out because he had gender reassignment surgery. I went from being in love with my girlfriend to being in love with my boyfriend in the space of a very few years. If you think people don’t understand homosexuality or bisexuality, try transsexuality.
It’s safe to say that in one way or another I’ve experienced every color in the GLBT rainbow. All in one relationship. Without ever officially coming out while I was married. The topic was rarely broached because my husband wanted to be known as a man, not a man who used to be a woman. He also didn’t want to end up the dead hero of a movie like Boys Don’t Cry. Most certainly fair enough. In order to accommodate his wishes, however, I had to remain closeted myself for the most part. That kind of pressure is a lot for a psyche to take over 25 years.
So yes, in this series I’m writing what I know and what I’ve struggled with, albeit though the lens of a male couple. No matter the gender, the experiences are the same, and these are deeply personal books for me. They’re also a lot of sexy fun too, because these guys wouldn’t have it any other way! If you’d like to read the unedited first chapter of Out Takes, it’s up on my blog at http://www.tibbyarmstrong.com.
And now the important questions: If you’re baking a cake, chocolate or vanilla? Butter cream or cream cheese frosting? And do the roses on top always have to be white? These are the questions that really matter, because, as Kit knows, not much can’t be fixed with a little powdered sugar and a lot of icing.
Romance author, Tibby Armstrong, has a lust for books and a love of travel.
On the terrestrial plane, she dreams of springtime in Paris, and has journeyed across the pond to London, Oxford, and Bath. She travels more extensively, through worlds both strange and familiar, via science fiction, urban fantasy, mystery, romance, biography, and travel memoirs.
Tibby’s favorite authors include Connie Willis, Elizabeth Moon, C.E. Murphy, Maria V. Snyder, Karen Marie Moning, Charlaine Harris, and Jane Austen, to name a few. To see the rest, and read some reviews, find her extensive reading list on GoodReads.
Having recently completed her MLS, when she’s not writing, Tibby works toward defying librarian stereotypes; yet, she lives with four cats, two computers, and enough books to collapse a poorly engineered house.
You can find Tibby on Facebook as Tibby Armstrong and on Twitter as @TibbyArmstrong. Or, email her directly at Tibby@TibbyArmstrong.com.